tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-50496108202886086572011-08-22T22:30:12.337+08:00jolyn giselle khewnoreply@blogger.comBlogger61100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5049610820288608657.post-40855254728365142242007-12-30T01:57:00.001+08:002007-12-30T02:01:43.110+08:00<span style="font-family:arial;color:#ff0000;">sighs~</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">its been months since i last update this blog...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">life been real bad aftr ray's disappearance...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">bt ive finally gotten ovr it(:</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">and few months latr i fall for this guy at studiowu...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">now things is getting bad...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">from the day we started its alr a weird and wrong start...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">i mean he dint even rlly like me for who i am...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">now im doubting his love fr me...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">im serious...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">it seems like he dosent rlly love me..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">bt only my body...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">thrs alot of things i wish to say...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">bt yet thrs too much to say tt im tired of repeating myself...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">till date im still pondering on whther we were meant to be...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">im feeling rly paranoid...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">he rlly did make me forget abt ray...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">and everything...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">bt i jst dun feel loved...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">its like he jst look for me on two occasions..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">1) when his free</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">2) when he feels like it...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">he nvr ever take the effort to hv some free time for me...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">everything is so impt to him except me...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">im rlly begginning to get scared...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">sigh):</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">i hope all these wil get resolved...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#ff0000;">im....speechless.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5049610820288608657-4085525472836514224?l=jo-giselle.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>jolyn giselle khewnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5049610820288608657.post-51905646947246286892007-10-13T14:01:00.001+08:002007-10-13T14:03:25.207+08:00<div align="center"><span style="font-size:180%;"><strong><span style="color:#ff6600;"><span style="font-family:arial;">im confused, paranoid...in a state of serious delimma</span><br /></span></strong></span><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:180%;color:#ff6600;"><strong>THANKS MANN<br />uve jst successfully runined me</strong></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5049610820288608657-5190564694724628689?l=jo-giselle.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>jolyn giselle khewnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5049610820288608657.post-45251439534877239942007-10-01T21:02:00.000+08:002007-10-01T21:23:20.856+08:00<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3ugQ6k-c-g4/RwDz-n3qvrI/AAAAAAAAAZo/6lKmZ5qUMUY/s1600-h/HELLLOOOSs.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5116357433872793266" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_3ugQ6k-c-g4/RwDz-n3qvrI/AAAAAAAAAZo/6lKmZ5qUMUY/s400/HELLLOOOSs.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div><span style="font-family:arial;color:#000000;">im down...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">i duno whds wrong with me...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">ive receieve the message from raisins...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">im disappointed... not at his answers...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">bt how he reacts to this problem...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">he know is unfair for me, thn why he started giving me the wrong signals from the beginning/</span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">why is he contradicting his words?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">why he wna hold my hands whn the nxt day he is hugging another girl?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">so whd is he trying to do here?</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;"></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">i rlly duno how to explain this.</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">i mean in the first place i dun even know whds happening...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">precisely, tts the problem..whr it lies...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">i realise perhaps his relationship with lyd, had alr been very bad.</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">and im jst the jeopardy, the trigger....</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">so he said he rlly dun wna see me for the time being..</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">reason being he dun wn lyd to hurt me in either way...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">and also, he says he n lyd had been thru alot these 7mths...and dun wna end the relationship jst like tt..</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">okaye fine i kinda understand his feelings and etc...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">bt latr , he says he wants me to wait for him...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">so how long he wants to hold on to me? seeing him happily with lyd...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">and me? the audience sitting thr with the ticket tt last forever?</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">so he have the happiness thn whd abt me?</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">okaye, people always says 'LOVE IS SELFISH'</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">now i finally understand the meaning of it...and i rlly believ in it...</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">well... if he rlly loves me he will not be with lyd//x</span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">jst bcos he wna show me how much ive hurt him in the previous brk up and tt he dun wna do this to lyd cos he knows its a rly hurtful thing to do..</span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">so he rather I get hurt jst bcos HE thinks im strong and mature?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">thn i wil start being vulnerable and immature thn...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">and i told him, since he'd alr chosen lyd, thn why stil wna love me?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">guess whd he says, " this is my life, you cnt choose who i wna love and not to'</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">fine-_- im tongue-tight...thanks mann...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">okaye now i realise i aint the audience...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">im the prop...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">the prop tt he use as and whnever he likes to...</span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">its getting enuff out of me...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i feel so hurt alr...its accumulating inside me i cried my heart out in the bathroom..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">so tt no one cn see nor hears me...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">damned, how pathetic you mst be thinking...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i nvr ever wnted to be with you...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i mean ive been envying the relationship between n and lyd..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i rlly am, and i also gave u my deepest blessings and i rlly mean it..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">bt why did u started it?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">why u wna say u love me. WHY?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">at least if u dint say tt , i wont realised i love u tooo...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">and now, makin me fall so deep you'r telling me all these...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i dun wna b with you tts for sure...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">bt the way you handle this situation is $*%)^I</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">am i rlly your prop?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">thn cn u pls destroy me?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">dun brk me pieces by pieces and torture me like this...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">jst destroy me once and for all can you??</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">can you stop telling me u love me whn ur alr with lyd.. you shld know how unfair it is to her..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">&amp; bcos of this, she hates me...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i knw im at fault, bt arnt u too?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">hav u ever tot abt this not??</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">im wondering..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">prhaps all the fate and fairtale thingy is jst some wild imaginations i get past few days..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">is like im living in my own fantasy tt aint gna come true...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">thanks for waking me up with ur msg...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i promise to wait for u for aslong as i cn...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">bt i dun wna ruin my future cos of you...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">whd if aftr 10 yrs ur stil with lyd?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">or rather, til ur death day...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">cn u b so heartless to let me wait for so long whn in the end u have no intention to brk with her and b with me?</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">okayes..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">im gna stop here..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i mean i shld nvr had started this 'frndship/relationship/affection/love" kinda thing with you...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i shld jst blame myself for being so naive...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">bt stil..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">thanks for al the memoris.</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i rlly did love u alot past few days...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i tried my best not to fall to deep...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i tot i dint...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">bt i realise i did... i fell rlly deep...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">is asif i cant feel the surface nor the bottom of my heart at al..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">im stuck..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;"></span></div><br /><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">bt dun u feel guilty nor sad nor worry...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">im okaye, im happy on my own...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">now and thn. i wil stil reminisce ovr our past...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">bt will nvr ever wna go back thr...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i had enuff of happiness and sadness aswel..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">jst...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">thank you...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">put ur mind/heart/soul in ur relationship with lyd...</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:Arial;">i dun wna be called a bitch anymre..</span><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#000000;">thanks for granting me back my freedom=)</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5049610820288608657-4525143953487723994?l=jo-giselle.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>jolyn giselle khewnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5049610820288608657.post-90338975164727367472007-09-01T23:51:00.000+08:002007-09-01T23:58:54.580+08:00<span style="font-family:arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">seriously...all i got to say is <strong>'LIFE SUCKS'</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">im trying al means to change tt mentality of mine</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt i cant believe it whn i found something else...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">is that all of us live for the sake of living.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and not becos we LOVE it</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okaye maybe some rlly 'LOVE' life..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">which i dun seems to understand why/</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt tts definitely from the minority</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">my word, even the wealthiest family stil dun feel its enuff.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">i mean they nvr had enuff...infact,none of us ever do.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and the poor, yearn for more, bt nvr have it...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">see? whd i mean.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and all these leads to major problems</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">eg. the poor might jst die from starvation and depression</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">eg. the wealthy ones, they might jst cheat and lie to earn big money, which results them in big crisis as well</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">indeed, i rlly dun understand whds the meaning of life.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">for 15 yrs , i stil cant find the answer. so when wil i ever do?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">is THIS whd you called 'LIFE'?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">if not? then how isit like.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">i cant seems to feel nor see it</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">isit invisible?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">then whd is this journey,this thing we are leading?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">its weird...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">we are born to this world, leading this nvr satisfying life and then wait for our time to come to meet GOD.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so whds the point of coming to this world in the first place?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">to suffer? to love and hate?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">thats all.?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">then i rather we dun live at al.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt how can we achieve tt?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">sadness is ever so easy to come...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt whn it comes to happiness...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">its hard to find.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">everybody may seems happy on the outside,.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt inside, no one ever knows how tt person is feeling</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">thrs always a brk in a relationship.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">a tiff in a friendship.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and every other thing</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so why???</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">can anyone ans me plsss?</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5049610820288608657-9033897516472736747?l=jo-giselle.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>jolyn giselle khewnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5049610820288608657.post-17248063811182778142007-08-23T21:32:00.000+08:002007-08-23T22:05:24.679+08:00<span style="font-family:arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">actually i think its quite useless for me to be blogging here</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okayes its good as i can always refer back on my wrong-doings and do a bit of reflection</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt its weird whr i post for myself to see-_-</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okayes its not rlly THAT weird afterall...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">as its simliar to normal written diary isnt it?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">locked and ur the only one tt holds the key...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">which also means your the only one tt can open and read it</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okayes fine it comes to square one</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">hahas!<br />so this shall be my first post for this new created blog.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">damnit i found my favourite purple colour</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">was considering whther to do my own blogskin..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt realise my blogskins rlly sucks to the core...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so its best if i use other people ones=D</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okayes so i jst ended another relationship with the other party feeling hurt and all...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">which i find...dumb-_-</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">its like another fabian koh omg...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">i hate guys tt seeks for empathy and receive none..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and in the end.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">turn his back, walked away with shame o_o</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">gosh how ugly.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">i jst simply dun understand why guys are...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okaye nvrmind</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">perhaps i have too many prejudices towards 'guys' now</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okayes so talking about my recent relationship with wilbert leong.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">this guy from singapore poly.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">well... hes a not bad guy.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">you cant expect everyone to be perfect isnt it?</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">*yes AGREEE!* {self-proclaimed}</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">but alright<br />back to the point... so we started talking for awhile.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">thn he jst go straight to the conclusion that he likes me and wants me to be his girlfriend.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">at tt point of time, i rlly felt is so godamn ridiculous..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt i cant help feeling a bit touched.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">though i forgot whd he said, i jst now its something sweeeettt</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">thn i kinda trip over his trap and fall into it-_-</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so now i shldnt blame anyone bt me myself...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">thn we stopped msging for awhile.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">as i know for sure hes a flirtatious guy ...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">bt duno whd happened in the end...we started chatting agn...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and we met the first time at queenstown...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and he brought me to meet this friend of his.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">damned hes late for our first meeting><</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">okayes so nvrmind, forgiven.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">thn meet his friend...he chatted with his friend and all.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">im like a vase, sitting thr and staring at them chatting.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so this i dun mind..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and latr at night, he brought me agn to meet another guy...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and they started playing pool</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">agn im sitting thr like a retard and watching them play.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">*ohyah! he tried to hold my hands for no apparent reasons-_- *</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">as his friend stays at serangoon, so we cabbed home together.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">a guy i jst know for ONE day -_-</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and some events happend in between..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">shall not state it here, like not much need to..</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so yea...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and we got together, him and me on tt very day.</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">29th july 2007</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">that happend in kinda like a sudden thing</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">im not sure why i accepted him either...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">and whn we got together...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">he started talking to me abt having sex -_-</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">tts like the worst topic ever!</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so ofcourse i rejected</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">~theend~</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">sudd realise its all ovr...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">so thrs not much need to be explained all ovr agn </span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">im jst gna say why i broke up with him...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"><strong>1. Because i realise, i prefer singlehood</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"><strong>2. I rlly hate to be committed to a relationship, its stressful.</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"><strong>3. I like to be surrounded by friends rather than just one</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"><strong>4. Just simply love freedom((:</strong></span><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span></strong><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">kinda random bt totally true...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">hmmm</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;">thats it for today bloggie!!!<br />be backk asap!!!!<br />loveeeessss loooootttsss=D</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:100%;color:#000000;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5049610820288608657-1724806381118277814?l=jo-giselle.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>jolyn giselle khewnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5049610820288608657.post-20737973383425651602007-08-23T21:01:00.000+08:002007-08-23T21:29:21.692+08:00<span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="font-family:arial;">just wondering...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">perhaps some private time for me and myself to do some soul-searchig...</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">isnt a bad idea afterall(:</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">yea!</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">happy 1st day for my private blog:D</span><br /><span style="font-family:Arial;">*CLAPS LOUDLY*</span></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5049610820288608657-2073797338342565160?l=jo-giselle.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>jolyn giselle khewnoreply@blogger.com0